Saturday, 21 February 2009

• Befuddlement.

  Now i am not sure how many people read my xanga blog, but i do know that this blog is a blog where i WILL write about some of the emotions that i do not usually display, or write about openly, considering the fact that this blog is a less known one. And i have made up my mind, this blog, is where i will talk about guys. Cause i rarely ever do that on my blogs that are more exposed.
  
  So at this very instant, i would just like to express something that has been on my mind. About this guy. Whom i have secretly harboured feelings for, for about 3 years. Yes, my feelings for him ARE fading away, and i don't think about him much. YES i am progressing well! (No, you can't forget someone you invested so much feelings for in just a snap)
  
  And i met him just now. YES, i did. I was just passing by, he was in the car, and i was just giving a holla to one of our friends who were standing outside the car, and yeah. HE CAME OUT. Of the car. JUST, to.. greet me.. and shake my hand. and give me, a hug. and ask. "how are you?"
  
  Now how on EARTH can you resist such care?? Especially when it comes to a person you are not completely over yet??
  
  AND BOY if HIS girlfriend finds out she's gonna kill me. HAHAHA. At least i think so. I MEAN, COME ON. This dude is in a relationship. YOU ARE NOT supposed to be THAT friendly to any other girl besides your GIRLFRIEND right? Well i do know only players and casanovas do that, BUT he is not a player nor is he a casanova okay. seriously.
  
  And i haven't even mentioned all the stuff he said during a wedding reception we happened to attend. If his girlfriend KNEW WHAT HE SAID, she's not only gonna shove her foot down his throat, but probably get into a cat fight with me HAHAHA! No, i'm not being melodramatic, neither am i exaggerating.
  
  It is still much of a befuddling matter for my mind to comprehend WHY this guy got into this relationship with THAT girl. I don't get it. I JUST DON'T. I mean, she doesn't even look HIS type.
  
  There were times i was convinced that YES, he did probably feel the same way. (oh god, how could you not especially if he has given you a FLYING KISS before? IN PUBLIC? and not only that... there many many many just UNCOUNTABLE indications to show!) But then at the same time, certain occurrences prove otherwise.
  
  But whatever. That's history now.
  
  So yeah.
  
  I still get this nice and warm fuzzy feeling when and after i interact with him you know. I mean. I can't help it. He makes me feel... that way. And he's the only one who can.
  
  *sigh*
  
  I guess i should just stop thinking about this now. It's 3 am now, and YES, i have to sleept!
  
  night people. :)
  
  

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